Sunday, January 23, 2000

Essay from Quynh - Memories of Tiffany

Quynh K Le
Instructor: J.Inslee
English 100

AUTOBIOGRAPHY/REMEMBERED EVENT ESSAY

In summer 2007, my family and I went to United States for visiting. We stayed at my parent’s friend; they knew each other already 25 years ago, before uncle got into America to begin a new life. I called my parent’s friend uncle and his mother grandma. He has a daughter, but since uncle and his wife had divorced, she lived with her mom. Her name was Tiffany Nguyen. That summer was the first time I met this family even though I knew them long time ago as my dad told me. It was a really cozy summer with plenty of funs living with grandma, uncle and Tiffany.

Tiffany was a cute and courageous girl. Before I came to the States, I knew that Tiffany had got cancer in her lungs, but she won the game. She had been rescued after treatment when she was only 12 years old. At that time, she didn’t have any hair on her head and she had to suffer so much pain, but that didn’t make her hesitate to continue going to school. Instead, she was a really good student in her middle school. Tiffany always smiled, and made people feel comfortable around her. When I saw her the first time in America, I told myself that she was beautiful. Furthermore, she was very friendly to me, my sister and brothers. We spent a lot of times together because she didn’t have to go to school. In that moment, I said thank you to God for giving her to us instead of taking her away. I thought that we were lucky having her around.

This year 2008, after my summer quarter, I came back to California to join them again. Unluckily, uncle told me that Tiffany would not have times to stay alive anymore because she got cancer second time and this time, it was in her heart. Hearing that, I had been hurt so bad; I didn’t really want to believe to what uncle told me. In my mind, I always wished that there would be a magic miracle to change this truth. Everybody knew that and though the same way as mine. We decided to not tell grandma and Tiffany because we didn’t want them to suffer any pain. I didn’t know why but I felt as Tiffany was my sibling, my young sister that I really loved. I never wanted to lose her.

Three weeks staying in California, I had not really met Tiffany every day because she had to study and go to school. I only saw her within three short days of weekends. I really loved the feeling when uncle and I went to her school to pick her up every Friday. At the moment when Tiffany saw us, she always smiled a true bright smile ever. I suddenly felt that my day was refreshed and I became happier. It seems like her smile was a really good medicament for both of us. She never began to talk unless uncle asked her how her day was. She told us everything and every time that she talked about the one that she didn’t like to much, Tiffany always said “ew!!” and then made a funny face. It made uncle and me laugh. I think that until now, I still remember how it was her voice and her face those days.

Within weekends, Tiffany stayed at grandma’s house, so that I could be with her three whole days. In one Saturday, Tiffany and I didn’t go anywhere but stayed home with grandma. We always did things together and had a lot of fun. We woke up together at the morning, and then went to bathroom to brush our teeth. We went to the kitchen and the dining room to eat breakfast. It was not something special but only cereal. Because of Tiffany, I discovered that Honey Cheerios was a good sweet cereal that I liked too much. The taste was not too sweet but I could smell honey flavor in it. When we ate that with milk, the sweet of cereal and the coldness of milk combined which made the food more delicious. We both really enjoyed having that as breakfast. We liked it a lot. At that moment, the atmosphere of the small grandma kitchen suddenly became cozier with three people and their laugh.

That day, Tiffany had been waiting for Jonas Brothers on television. They had a short concert on TV, in Ellen’s program. She called her friend and they both talked about Jonas Brothers. They are her idol; Tiffany really loved them and their voice as most American teenagers did. When she talked about them, her face became brilliant and happy. Tiffany and her friend talked about everything on this earth; it took around haft hour. When Jonas Brothers appeared, Tiffany screamed very loud, as she won the first prize of lottery. She woke me and told me “Sis, it is Jonas Brothers! Jonas Brothers is perfect!” It made me fell funny and become happy as she did. Along the concert, she sang. It seems like she knew every Jonas Brothers song’s lyrics; she could sing it fluently. Tiffany had a high and pure voice. I really loved this voice. At this moment, this voice has been haunting me. I really miss that.

Next week, this was a week of MTV music award. Since my aunt organized events for the famous singers, she could take me together with her to the concert and the party after that. It was a unique chance that I ever had in my life. I could say that the ticket was not easy to buy, even for a VIP place like that. I really wanted to go, but something in bottom of my heart hindered me to accept the invitation. I denied it and chose to stay home with Tiffany and grandma. When I told her that I would not go to the MTV music award, Tiffany told that I was crazy and stupid. She really wanted to go there but she could not, whereas I had the chance but I did not take it. I was not angry because she told me that. In my mind, I knew that I would not have more chance to see her in the future, and it was more valuable for me to spend time with her than going to the concert. At this moment, I recognized that she was very important to me.

That day, uncle was not home because he has to go somewhere to see his friend. They both had to discuss about their business. Tiffany and I stayed home again with grandma. I went to internet to download music; most of it was the top hits that time. I did not understand why Tiffany could know every songs even its lyrics. Each time I played one song, she sang it. It really surprised and interested me. I decided to find the lyrics because I wanted to sing with her. We turned the volume maximum; it was at noon so it would not disturb anybody around. We sang together: Lucky and I’m yours of Jason Mraz, I kissed a girl of Katy Perry, Love bug of Jonas Brothers, etc. Songs after songs, I felt that I had a lot of energy to sing ever. That was the first time I sang as much as this, but it didn’t make me tired. I really enjoyed it. I could say that it was the most valuable memory for me. I wanted to record a video at this time but I didn’t have any camera. The joy and happiness of being together with Tiffany gave me a power to sing, even to continue this life.

The day before I came back to Seattle to continue my fall quarter, Tiffany and I chose to take photo stickers because I wanted to have something to keep as a souvenir. Photo stickers were the little pictures that we took in a machine and we could draw on that. We had a lot of fun taking picture like that. It was not too much time to prepare for each time that changed background. We laughed a lot and our face became red because it was too hot over there. However, pictures with “I Love you, Tiffany” or “Forever” became something special for me and Tiffany. I kept it very careful because it was the only one souvenir that I had with her.

Finally, I came back to Seattle and leaved Tiffany behind in California. It was a sad day because I didn’t be sure if I could see her again in the future. Two weeks later, uncle called me and told me that Tiffany had to stay in the hospital. The problem became graver and doctors said that it would be no chance for her to stay. Tiffany would have only one month to be alive. In that moment, what I didn’t hope that happen happened. I cried a lot and felt guilty. I decided to flight back there within weekends to see her. Being there, seeing her suffering too much pains made me hurt. I wanted to cry but I did not. I talked to her as there was nothing happened. She always smiled with me and I knew that she was happy because I came here to see her. It seems like her pain became the pain of everybody. At this moment, I hugged her and didn’t want to release. In my mind, I thought that releasing her now meant that I could lose forever. What had to come came; she was gone at December 08, 2008, two weeks later.

Saturday, January 01, 2000

"Tiffany's Dream" - Bringing Smiles to Children with Cancer

PURPOSE: In memory and honor of our beautiful and beloved 14-year old niece/cousin Tiffany Nguyen, we, Tiffany family and friends, would like to invite you joining us open your heart to bring love and smiles to children with cancer. If each person could help bring just one DVD to pediatric cancer patients, Tiffany’s dream of helping those undergoing the same struggles she went through will be realized.

GOAL: Our goal is to supply as many DVD movies as possible to the Oncology/ Hematology department at Children’s Hospital of Orange County (CHOC). They are in the process of switching all VHS players to DVD players and are in need of DVD movies.

All movies, new or used, any types, are appreciated. They must be rated G, PG or PG-13. The latest Disney movies are always popular!

ACTION: We invite you to join us:
Send new / used DVD movie(s) directly to CHOC:
  • CHOC Child Life Support Dept.
    455 S. Main St.
    Orange, CA 92868
    Attn: Brianne Ortiz / Tiffany’s Dream
Send your check of $10, $20, or any amount you wish to the above address, made payable to: CHOC Child Life Support Dept.

Please include a note indicating this is for Tiffany’s Dream. Brianne at CHOC 714-532-8473 will help us to keep track and report our accomplishments including the names of all contributors.

Even one DVD from you will help bring smiles to many cancer patients. Hopefully we can help them escape from feelings of pain, fear, loneliness, and angriness, and instead focus on something fun and entertaining.

BACKGROUND: Tiffany, a granddaughter/ daughter/ niece/ cousin/ aunt, passed away peacefully on 12/05/08 in Children’s Hospital of Orange County. She had battled an incurable and very rare type of sarcoma cancer, Malignant Peripheral Nerve Sheath Tumor, since her diagnosis in June 2006. She went through a major surgery, 8-month chemo, 4-month radiation, many emergency visits to the hospital due to medical side effects, then, with nowhere else to turn, started a first cycle of a clinical drug trial prior to her death.

While taking turns helping Tiffany’s parents to care for her in the hospital, we noticed that Tiffany often looked at the TV when she’s awake, but there was not much for her to watch that was interesting. We would have loved to divert her attention from pain to entertainment, even for a short time.

There were no new VHS movies available. We sadly met many other cancer children who were also suffering from excruciating pain and loneliness.

Three days after Tiffany’s passing, we (her dad, aunts, and 3 cousins) returned to CHOC to visit her 8-year-old friend, who severely suffers from leukemia that has spread to her bones. Her friend is in pain and very lonely because most of the time she only has her mom with her. Her dad has to stay home taking care of her siblings. We brought her favorite movie “High School Musical” and decorated her room with some of Tiffany’s toys. Her mom said we made her day. Watching her happiness and beautiful smile through her pain awakened us all, we felt that we had at times taken life for granted, and we felt the need to do something, even a small thing, to help bring joy and erase physical and mental pain even for a few minutes or hours. We called for a short family discussion of how we can help. We unanimously voted for buying some meaningful gifts for these cancer kids instead of buying Christmas gifts for each other.

TIFFANY’S DREAM:

Tiffany always had a special relationship with children. She was very patient and caring with her younger cousins and children of all ages. She could feel when they were happy or sad, and always had a special way of helping them feel better. On Christmas day of 2007, Tiffany and her cousin brought presents for the cancer children in CHOC. While in the hospital and during recovery, Tiffany often visited and shared her teddy bears and balloons with other younger patients, wanting to help ease their loneliness.
The generosity from Make-a-Wish Foundation, Ronald McDonald camp and her child life support during her illness had deeply touched Tiffany’s beautiful heart and influenced her future plan: working at Jamba Juice at 15, learning how to drive and having a boyfriend at 16 (if dad permitted), volunteering as counselor at Ronald McDonald camp at 19, and working part time as child life support in a child oncology ward while attending college to become a kindergarten teacher. But her beautiful dream was cut devastatingly short.

We want to continue Tiffany’s dream by making a positive impact on children and helping them to be happy and enjoy their lives to the fullest as we know Tiffany would want.

IN CONCLUSION:
  • We would like to carry on Tiffany’s dream of bringing smiles to children with cancer.
  • Please spread the word among your family and friends to keep this 14-year old girl’s beautiful dream alive and benefit other unfortunate pediatric cancer patients.
  • We will start with CHOC where Tiffany had received her cancer care from all of her wonderful caregivers who had been patiently and gently caring for her with all their hearts from the day she was admitted until her last breath.
  • Your caring hearts and contributions will help make Tiffany’s dream come true!